I had a rough night of sleep last night, not really resting, and getting up every hour or so to go to the bathroom which took about 15 minutes due to the slowness of the crutches and my exhaustion. I slept in til about 11 this morning and finally decided to get up, if you could even call it that. I sat up and got on my computer. I took a nexium which has to be taken an hour before eating. At around 12:15 I got in the wheel chair and went to the kitchen where I made myself a pizza sub, and enjoyed sitting in the kitchen watching the birds for a while.
I eventually ended up back in my room where the emptiness hit. Being in the room all alone is somewhat depressing, especially when I have such a hard time just getting in and out of bed.
Around 3:30 Matt got here which absolutely brightened my day:) and around 4:45 Maddie got here to sit with me for the evening while Mom and Katie went out. We got to eat spaghetti for dinner, my request, which was regretted later. I dont think my stomach was ready for it = painful!
Maddie and I enjoyed a good evening of talking and goofing off, but when she left the emptiness arrived again. I then began feeling depressed, alone, pitiful, sick, in pain, and more. Matt attributed it to the meds, but I'm not too sure.
I know this road isn't going to be easy, and it's going to take a LOT of work. I'm thankful the surgery went well, but now begins the hard part, and I STILL need your prayers. I'm almost pain free when sitting down, but moving around is a big problem, and doing my minimal PT exercises is death. I need prayers because it's going to require a lot of perseverance to make it through this!!!
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