Nerves

I'm sure this writing will be hasty, and poorly written. Right now I am facing many fears. Surgery is less than 48 hours away, and it's beginning to terrify me.

I'm nervous about a million different things, mostly the IV, and then waking up. I'm scared of what it will feel like. I'm scared of the pain afterwards. I'm worried about what stupid things I might say coming out of the surgery. I'm worried about how I will react to the anesthesia. I can list about 50 different things I'm worried about, but right now, I know I'm merely sitting here wallowing in sin.

"Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God.And the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus." Philippians 4:6-7

25 “Therefore I tell you, do not be anxious about your life, what you will eat or what you will drink, nor about your body, what you will put on. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothing? 26 Look at the birds of the air: they neither sow nor reap nor gather into barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not of more value than they? 27 And which of you by being anxious can add a single hour to his span of life?28 And why are you anxious about clothing? Consider the lilies of the field, how they grow: they neither toil nor spin, 29 yet I tell you, even Solomon in all his glory was not arrayed like one of these. 30 But if God so clothes the grass of the field, which today is alive and tomorrow is thrown into the oven, will he not much more clothe you, O you of little faith? 31 Therefore do not be anxious, saying, ‘What shall we eat?’ or ‘What shall we drink?’ or ‘What shall we wear?’ 32 For the Gentiles seek after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them all. 33 But seek first the kingdom of God and his righteousness, and all these things will be added to you." 34 “Therefore do not be anxious about tomorrow, for tomorrow will be anxious for itself. Sufficient for the day is its own trouble. Matthew 6:25-34 Goodness LORD!!!! How can I worry when you have so lovingly cared for me!!! YOU created ME!!! You love me despite my wrong doing and my failures. You have this all planned out, and I want the glory to be brought to you!!!